And the Past and the Future?

oh lord

2006-12-27T04:10:07Z

you guys i'm so nervous

pleasepleasepleasepleasepleasepleasepleasepleasepleasepleasepleasepleasepleasepleasepleasepleasepleaseplease
puhhleezze

necessito leer bitches, leer

2006-12-21T00:52:24Z

it is 7:45.

i have 60 pages left to read, 14 of which are bio, 20 ingles, and 26 history. does that add up to 60?

whatever whatever whatever i can do it alskdjf;alwihgasdklfwo;klajklhglajsdklfjasieoojalskdjf

a) i'm happy for resolutions
b) diarrhea (sp)
c) do you know what coprolites are? ****see answer below
d) CHRISTMASCHRISTMASCHRISTMASCHRISTMASCHRISTMASCHRISTMASCHRISTMASCHRISTMASCHRISTMASCHRISTMAS

*****fossilized feces AAAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAH

sunday night

2006-10-30T02:27:27Z

your
slim frame
your
eager eyes and your
wild mane
oh, they
keep me
where i belong
all wrapped up in wrong
you're
to blame
for
wasted words
of sad refrain
oh, let them
take me where they may
ahuh, believe me when i say

that i
will be
your accident
if you
will be
my ambulance
and i
will be
your screech and crash
if you
will be
my crutch
and cast
and i
will be
your one
more time
if you
will be
my one
last chance

oh, fall for me

your
slim frame
oh, and your
simple stare
and your wrong, wrong name
oh, they
keep me
where i belong
all strung out in song
why so tame?
we could shoot
wilder vines
through younger veins
sip slow from night's deep wells
and watch our gardens swell
once the seeds are sown
wild and overgrown
you'll see
heart's
colors changed like leaves

oh, sweet
sweet
tree
fall for me
fall fast
fall free
fall for me

because i
will be
your ambulance
if you
will be
my accident
and i
will be
your screech
and crash
if you
will be
my crutch
and cast
and i
will be
your one
more time
if you
will be
my one
last chance

oh,
sweet tree
fall for me
fall fast
fall free
fall with me

no, it seems too lovely to be true

2006-10-05T00:55:37Z

sucks to be masco.

p.s. they repainted the white lines, too.

p.p.s. happy seventeen, em

woah

2006-09-27T22:58:58Z

they painted a new yellow line down the middle of Church street and
it is so bright that it sucks the life out of the rest of west newbs
all the other colors are so dull and bland in comparison
look out my window and your eyes just go ZING right to the line
it' s unnatural i don't like it
it will fade sooon enough, right?

hey how bout i get some more homework then maybe my life will be better

sigh

2006-08-30T01:59:45Z

hey. here we go.

p.s.

2006-08-22T21:47:15Z

Hello World, This Is Me

2006-08-22T19:43:36Z

even if my whole summer had sucked juicy balls--which it didn't, not even a little, it was beautiful--today would have made it all better. i'll be smiling for the next month because of today, and because of the fact that i have the most wonderful and thoughtful people in my life and they love me, and i could not be luckier. or more lucky. whatevz.

i am, i am the luckiest.

i get up in the morning and go to sleep at night for my friends. they're everything.

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ohmygod

2006-08-05T16:01:15Z

bye i'm leaving and i'll never be back.

Hmph

2006-07-10T04:18:36Z

You Were A Firefly

2006-07-09T02:36:09Z

lj, i've been ignoring you for some time. sorry. but i have a feeling this is going to be really long and make up for my negligence.

hi connie and taylor and maggie, since you are the only people i write to on these things. i haven't seen any of you for some time, and it's starting to be a problem. especialmente since taylor is leaving tomorrow forever. what is with that random wednesday thing? i'm glad though that you'll be home then, but it's just weird.

anyway this has been my life lately: summer = lovely free yummy beautyness BUT i've been sick on and off--mostly on----let's just call it "stomach problems"--for going on two weeks now, and let me tell you, it has not been a bucket of laughs. like take right now, for instance, it feels like the inside of my belly is being incinerated and shriveling in a knot! whatevz though, i'm a trooper and i will overcomeeee. typing is good, takes my mind away. okay so

then there has been The Wiz, which ends tomorrow. it's good, but i liked godspell better. the music, maybe. this show, jon is conducting. he looks so right and smart and good down there in the pit, leading his musicians in their melodic march through every scene. he looks like this is what he is meant to do, and that is so good. he knows that he wants to spend his life conducting, it must be such a good feeling. security. peace. glowing goodness.

theatre attracts strong personalities, generally. i've noticed. and lots of funny people. interesting people. loud bright flashy people. i mean, it takes a different kind of a person in the first place to want to get up on a stage and entertain and give a little bit of themselves away every night to a crowd of strangers and sing and dance and smile and put on costumes and make-up and transform into somebody else. you have to wonder what the motivation is behind each actor, why they want to play pretend and get out of their own skin for a while. i wonder what makes me want to do it. i guess it's the uncontainable smile that forms on my face every time i'm up in front of a clapping hooting audience, and the laugh that slips out between my teeth and the breath that catches in my chest. i'm so corny you want to spread some butter, shake a pinch of salt on me and call it a meal! but i know that this happiness is pure and real becuase when i try to play it cool and keep a straight face, i fail. i have to give in and grin and show everybody how excited i am that i was just a part of that performance.

the gundersheims are a special couple. during rehearsal, whenever we are doing a scene and we finish and strike our button pose, i look out into the house and see them sitting there in the front row, and i just think how rewarding their work must be, to see it come alive, and to do it together. they are a perfect match, they must feel so lucky to have each found someone that they love and that loves exactly the same things, so they can be like one person their whole lives and devote everything to what makes them happy. and sometimes they get crabby and quarrel but its exactly like they should because they know each other so well and have total comfort together, so they can be jerks here and there. and now they have this beautiful family, three gorgeous adorable kids that will grow up loving the stage as much as their parents. hannah is already a diva and rebecca is a prankster with the most lovable fat cheeks. i hope that everything works out so well for them when they move, and his job is great and the kids like the schools and the community accepts them right away. they will be sorely missed around here, they are so important and special to the theatre people. it's easy to see why, when the shows they put on are more incredible every year.

talent is rare and addictive. when a performer really knows what he's doing up there, when he can command the stage and make his voice go up to the sky and then down underground and move with a force and an energy that nobody can rip their eyes away from, then it's crazy and you know you could spend hours and days sitting and watching and drooling over that somebody. many many people want to be that person that the world googles about, so there are always an abundance of actors who have no tangible talent, just an idea of it in their minds, a yearning to be that neon, blinking sign on top of a skyscraper instead of just plain magic marker on cardboard outside food mart. in community theatre, these people get a chance to entertain, but out in the real world their dreams are taken away and they are forced to come to terms with the fact that they suck, or they're good but not Good! life is miserable for these rejects for a while, but then they find another job and they work hard to make enough money to be able to buy tickets for every show on broadway. that's if they really love theatre. then you have these unexplainables that A. have zero talent in performing, and B. don't like it. excuse me, what are you doing? why are you here wasting everyone's time? these fools baffle and frustrate me. it's like, not only do you hate the taste of peanutbutter, but you're also allergic to it, and you're still eating a PBJ every day at lunch. this is basically the same situation. geeze. goodnight.

You Better Come, Come, Come to Me

2006-06-16T01:48:37Z

the entries going down around here are stirring up the old nostalgia.
i'm a considerably emotional person, not quite as intense as connie, but on the same page.
graduating sophomore year doesn't even count for anything. sigh, we've made it through a couple years of highschool. it is important in that it represents the midpoint. two down, two to go. and depending on the day i've had, the realization that high school is half over can come as liberating or depressing. tonight is a bittersweet mix of both.
i witnessed both jon and paige driving today. they each have their licenses, each can independently travel highways and byways, just like real people in the world outside everything we know. they're connected to that now, a part of whatever it is that's going on out there while we're shuffling from class to class in school. we're all waiting to claim our place in time after pentucket; they're both a little closer.
i don't know, i'm happy.

dontdiejuliet @ 2006-06-01T16:30:00

2006-06-01T20:41:59Z

june! what? heck, yes.

FUNFACTS:

june is named after the roman goddess Juno, queen of the all gods
father's day = sunday, the 18th
summer solstice = wednesday, the 21st
children's awareness month (focuses on increasing awareness of the vulnerability of children to violence)
national rivers month
national safety month
national rose month
national dairy month
gay pride month
june's birthstone is the pearl, Alexandrite, or moonstone
its hot
its heavy
its the shit!

You Don't Need A Reason To Get Out On The Dance Floor

2006-05-19T02:43:43Z

AND WE CAN GET IT ON AND ON, ALL NIGHT.

kidddiessss. so school has been entertaining. i'm starting to wish it would just detonate already. when i was in california last month, the implosion of a building took place right near my aunt's apartment. we toyed with the idea of going to watch, but 8 AM came too early.

speaking of my vakay, here are a select few lovely piktchas and i do not care if they're retardishly huge:

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All My Blood for the Sweetness of Your Laughter

2006-05-14T05:08:55Z

we're drowning, and it's supposed to last until friday.

however, i know one guy who's not letting all this water bring him down:

nope, not dylan. in fact, he's just a giggle-fest, kind of like my friend taylor.

what a hoot that girl is.

connie, too.

especially when nobody laughs at my jokes.

Here I Am Back Home Again

2006-05-09T20:16:36Z

dear livejournal,

i sort of missed you a lot.

since i've been away ms. poirer has taught me how to properly format a letter. if i so desired, i could write you up a modified block or a personal business, including enclosures, post scripts, blind and carbon copies, and delivery notation.

however, the reason i like you so much is that i dont have to pay attention to any of that shit.

sincerely yours,

MEEEEeeeee